auto-vivisection

tossed my hair on my ex’s doorstep
today. deflated like a dark dead cat.
left my left less
calloused hand and bleeding wrist
deep in the sleeve of my sweater.
throat, down-center.
slashed myself cesarean
to return my mother
my womb. a tooth
under the pillow of my sister,
deepest sleeper.
thigh bones for broth,
ribs split in the bath.
mailed off my snail shell ear
to my best friend, gold and all.
spool of my guts
I am unraveling
myself a trail
breadcrumbs
for birds (peck, peck,)
tufts of wheat
(peck) swaddled in beaks